A window into our process by Soren Dietzel

As we join together…

There seems to be a universal trend in this theme of fear. I draw from each personal story a similar meaning – in fear we find courage. By going deeper through fear we grow, finding the capacity for love. Even as the flower dies in the fall, retreating life forces gestate until new life springs forth. From the same bulb a new flower blooms.

There is a reality in taking up this work- I will meet fear. I will face fear not only in doing my own work but also in the group, in collaboration. I will be asked to trust, to surrender, to have courage and to love. But in the end we will bring a little beauty into the world, and have a lot of fun doing it! Therein lies the crux of the issue for me- to learn to love the process of meeting fear. Where else is joy than deep deep deep within the ever changing moment that is the miracle of life?

Fifteen Phases of Fear
A fearful force is introduced.
Burdened by past experience a shield is put up. But it is cracked and heavy.
The equation is simple- the action seemingly impossible. Overthinking…
Fear overtakes. Blocking out all possibility
Loss of play, tense white knuckle critic looks in. Overpowering…
Frozen. Reality reflects the inner state
Relinquishing any sense of control fears totality is reached.
Through surrender, rushing chaos as the dam of tension breaks.
An inner light shines. Something past illusion
The heavens answer the prayer cutting a path through the outer chaos
Perhaps even optimism begins to show as form shapes health. Disciplined thought the mind…
Organic form takes over the beauty of flow
Fed by forces of life itself, the work begins
The two forces are able to be combined now- bringing a third
Resolution as the parts become a whole- an organic process of evelution

Soren Dietzel

Meetings in Person

The core group has now met for 2 weeks looking at the history of the project, individual's ideas and the capacities they are bringing to the project. We have been playing a lot of music and researching other approaches to the media (https://www.instagram.com/glasseyeshadowpictures/ ) as well as playing Chriss Summer Roidt’s new game.

Card Game

It’s very interesting that the game requires collaboration and that progress is often unexpected and sometimes requires going backwards.

First Zoom Call - getting to know each other

First Zoom Call - getting to know each other
by Soren Dietzel

We met on zoom for our first meeting. We introduced ourselves, our work and our relationship to the proposed multi media art installation: the Metamorphosis of Fear.

We learned that the original project was set forth to Jan Stutten by Rudolf Steiner in the early 1900's. Among other things, it was meant as an exploration into an alternative to film. Concerned with the passive nature of the fledgeling technology the two men set forth to create a synesthetic art show. It would involve music, painting, projected light and even elements of hearing color and seeing tone. Set to the historical context of WWI, the motif they chose to express was the transformation of fear.

Each one of us on the zoom call had our own stories, our own losses, our own loves. They were our own and yet they brought us together. They let us know we were there to express transformation and acceptance; to step into the unknown and embrace fear with courage.

Now, a month later, we are convening in person for the first time to begin the work of collaboration